Virginia, I miss you.
I think you would have loved the snow. I tend to assume you would have loved everything. But I think you would have loved sledding and snow men. I think you would have loved running in the snow with the pups. I think you would have laughed, and really loved it.
I wish that was our life.
I wish that experience had not been taken from you.
I have enjoyed the snow of this winter. But it, like everything, is just not the same without you.
I had a miscarriage in May. We were so excited to see our baby for the first time that day we found out. It was May 19, our 4 year anniversary. What better way to celebrate than by seeing our first baby? I was excited to see the first hints of a human and to hear a little heart beat but instead there was silence. The nurse searches and searches but no heart beat. No heart beat.
ReplyDeleteA few days later it rained. I love the rain. Here in Texas I only get to see it in between months of sunshine. I walked outside that night, just to listen, just to smell the sweet rain. Instead I cried. I cried because my baby never would never get the chance to know rain. I would never get to hear their giggle as they jumped in puddles or be able to cuddle on the porch with them as it fell.
I would be 5 months pregnant right now probably complaining about sore ankles, they may of already had a name. Though I did not get to carry mine as long, I feel your pain and it hurts. Keep her name alive. For her and the ones who were never named.